20! I'm coming!

Well a couple weeks ago I just turned 20 and you know what, i kept thinkin about it like everyday single day. Frankly it was freaking me out! well like SOME mature people say, you have to be ready for more and more responsibilities, no more fun and games and foolin around.
So I'm not that excited for my birthday, major bummer.. I'm not counting down days like i used to, it's sooo yesterday. I'm gonna give you guys the low down about what happened a couple of hours before my birthday, see me and some friends went out to a little cafe, its called Melly's, we planned to stay there until twelve, so we started chit chating, but up until around eleven it became so uncomfortable there (don't ask me why, long story) so we decided to go to Vhey's apartment for some drinks.
There we did crazy things, like we taking pictures and stuff, sometime around midnight Vhey went to the kitchen and pulled out a BIRTHDAY CAKE!!
I was soooo surprised, I didn't expect that she had put that much trouble on to it. Also DM came from this thing he had, i thought he wasn't gonna come. So after that....you guessed it we took MORE pictures, and things started to went outta control. Cake and crazy people isn't a very good combination. Pieces of tart started flying across the room, followed by a handful to my face. uurgh!! Things start to calm down after we ran out of cake. And the result? TURMOIL.. there was icing everywhere, and I mean EVERYWHERE.. floors, walls, sofas.. That's pretty much it.. Lately I realized that what's important is the people who was with you through your birthday, not present or gifts.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!!

Red&White Photoshoot

I came back bringing some photos from my photoshoot for my campus magazine ..I love working with them! energy draining and yet I had lot of fun..The shoot went real fine :)
and for the next post i will tell 'ya about my birthday, quick updates !:)

Iconic Sillhoutte

hell yeah i'm back from hiatus :)

Couple days ago I was invited to my friend's graduation, at Ballroom Hotel Mulia, her major is Fashion Design, anyway, at her final test she's required to make 3 dresses, and the theme is "Iconic Silhoutte". It was my first time attending this kind of event, so I was overwhelmed by all the designs that both the student and some fashion designers made.The place was sooo crowded, and I got a seat at the back of the hall, but It's ok I enjoyed the show very much..

Here's a little review for today, and the photos (unfortunately I just bought my 50mm lens and the results are little bit crapy):

Me, in the blurry

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So here is my friend, Raisa with her masterpiece.I truly love the colour, pink and grey :)

Andddd Raisa won, she got the third place at the fashion show, I'm so glad for her literally. Because I know how she worked very hard on it, she always tells me how she's having difficulties finishing all the dresses. And she was worried and nervous about the D-day, and I can't believe that she got on the third place! What a great job Sa! Congratulations to you!

Dutty Love

I'm so excited to tell ya, about it, I've found a lovely classic bag at my mom rooms..when I found it, the bag just being neglected, and my mom was just gonna throw it away, and luckily I found it before she did..It's so dusty and smell old..for me it's smell exquisite!

I wore it this afternoon when I visited a new cafe in my town,ignore my crapy face, this town has successfully made me fatter! :( how can you resist all the tempting and ridiculously cheap foods here..

This songs is stuck in my head, and I can't let it go from my mind..it keeps me company for these past few days, I just play it over and over again..it's actually can be your mood booster,try it! :)

What if you would just come right out of these clothes
You can finally feel the wind when it blows
Don't be scared to be free to let go, show it off
Feel like letting go

I miss the bell sounds on that boarding house.

Dua hari yang lalu sewaktu awal lebaran kita sekeluarga di kejutkan sebuah berita,we on our way to holiday, and then somebody called my Dad..
tetangga, konselor, sekaligus teman buat kita telah meninggal dunia..
one of the sincerest person I got.

Kabar ini jelas membuat sekeluarga terpukul, dia orang yang sangat inspiratif karena ketulusan dan kegigihan nya..dia begitu dekat dengan keluarga kita, dia orang yang sangat tulus dan tidak perna sedikit pun pamrih untuk menolong orang, dan ga jarang dia menolong orang tanpa memikirkan diri nya sendiri. Orang yang sangat sederhana tapi dia mau menolong anak-anak yang kurang mampu dengan mendirikan sebuah asrama,orang yang sangat ramah dan seorang pendoa yang kalo ketemu selalu bilang"Mama kamu tu ga pernah berhenti untuk mendoakan kamu"dan itu selalu membuat saya semangat di Jakarta.
Dia pun meninggal kan kita semua karena ketulusan nya, menolong 3 remaja yang terseret ombak di pantai, sewaktu dia sedang berlibur dengan keluarga dan anak-anak asrama nya..
Tragis.
Yang membuat saya miris, bagaimana dengan keluarga yang ditinggalkan nya?kelima anak nya yang masih sangat kecil, bagaimana yayasan yang didirikan nya?bagaimana nasib anak didiknya?
because I never found a sincerest person in my life like that man..

Ga ada yang menyangka kabar tentang kepergiaanya, di saat dia masih punya banyak visi dan misi yang harus dicapai, begitu pun kita hidup di dunia ini seolah-olah mengabaikan kematian,"Ahh itu masih nanti.." We forget about death.Kita terlalu sibuk dengan our own busy life..Kita terlalu menghambur2kan waktu kita di dunia ini.Kita ga akan pernah tau kapan waktu kita tiba, kapan Tuhan bilang"Sudah selesai"
Kita di dunia ini pasti punya mission ato goal, dan ga asik kalo hidup ini waktu kita buang dengan percuma.When my time come,saya ga mau jadi orang yang cuma nyesekin kota, I have to be something special. Kepergian Pak Tim sungguh membuat saya tertampar, berbondong bondong orang datang ke pemakaman nya, rela ngantri, rela hujan-hujan an, datang macet2an dari luar kota, tujuan nya hanya satu to see his last time, dan orang begitu rela untuk datang ke pemakaman nya karena dia begitu spesial bagi kita. Waktu kita sedikit, seperti Mama selalu bilang"hidup ini di ibaratkan hanya untuk mampir ngombe/minum"Dan apakah waktu yang sangat sedikit itu bener-bener kita gunakan?

Selamat jalan Pak Tim,thanks for inspires us..

my sweet tooth: a bite of strawbery ice cream

Having a strawberry ice cream in the rainy afternoon was so comforting.I enjoyed this gloomy afternoon by sitting at cafee with the nerdy dude while he doing his assignments.. So I just enjoyed my ice cream,it was called Triple Strawberry, and it's so hmmm.. yum! I also brought my lappie with me, and they have free wi-fi there, without any username and password required..yahoo!

I kept thinking about my unstable emotions, lately... I didn't realize that it's effect to my health conditions, last day I checked up with my mom, 'cause my mom realized there were something wrong with my health, lets cut to the chase here... The doctor said that the disease came up cause I get stressed often, and if I kept on like these, it'll get worse. and she said that I need more relax time, and she suggested me to joined Yoga,err...Not for a second ever thought about it, I know that I'm full of anxiety, but I never thought that it would go that far.

Frankly, I used to be an ignorant person, but deep inside I always care about the little things,yap the little unnecessary things, even I know that they are crappy things.. I don't know if all of this is making sense.

For the meanwhile, I'm gonna stop thinking about all the negativity and start focusing to be more positive. Life's a highway, and I wanna ride it all night long. ;)

Photo Cabine

I found this amusing photobooth, you can check this out..I love the layout,and how it works just like real photobooth! But the instruction is in French, so I've just trying to assumed it,and I added some thought bubbles :)

Pose! Watch out,it shoot fast!

When I found this site, high school was the first time come out in my mind,we were loveee photobooth so badly.. This afternoon I've found tons of photo from high school, and it made me giggle.. :)

so ENJOY!♥

via katrina

Happy Sunday (made this myself)

Lately I felt that like times is chasing after me, seems like every where i turn there's a lot of to do, and i have to use my time wisely, literally... and I don't enjoy a second of it, you know the feeling when you have to do something because someone is forcing you.
Yeah, I'm being forced by time!
needles to say,it's completely, completely exhausting being like this...

just do what you love and fuck the rest

Are we there yet?

We went to Balekambang beach last week, me, Alex, Disa, Eben and Melissa..the place is so far away from Malang, the southern part.. it's about a 2 hour journey. Along the way, we girls can't stop asking "Are we there yet?" and we asked it like a zilion times, because we were sooo excited about this place..
As we arrived there, I was so amazed with that place, as it is my first time.The atmosphere and the great view just like Bali! the first thing to do is we had lunch..we brought our own lunch.
And next...let's see what we've got!

I'm so proud that Malang has sooo many beautiful places! I love this city.I love having awesome family and friends here,it's make me feels so young. I love the memories.I love the perfect weather.I love the traffic.I love the amazing food. I love that everything is cheap. I've enjoyed every second of it..♥
*got the idea from here

Happy Independece Day!

So at Independence day I joined the competition, the event was held near my house. I was freaking excited about this competition, just like last year. We joined the bakiak competition, which is 4 of us; Disa, Eben, Alex and me have to wear a looong bakiak, the fastest team to reach the finish line, wins! It was utterly painful and hilarious funny! Alex as the team leader has a long leg, so he has to strut long step and we, Disa ,Eben and me has to follow his loong step..it was so hilarious!
the other team was strong also, it was so competitive..

And SURPRISINGLY we wonnnn! after all that pain, the prize all was worth it!We were amazingly glad with the result..we didn't expect to win at all! ahahah
so for the next competition, which is "move/transfer the water" in a relay race, we felt so optimist to win. The rule is just we have to move the water with hand in relay way, so it was effin' easy! Right?
BUT! the result is we are the team who has the smallest amount..what a shame!



Next is "Moving the Eel" Gross is the word that stuck in my mind, I was so disgusted.. the eel just slippery, and won't stop swerming YUCK!!
it was my first time touched the eel, ohh God it was so gross gross gross!
but I have to, my team was counting on me, so i had to push myself and get rid of the yuckie uckie feeling.. come to think about it, it wasn't bad at all, I've just enjoyed every second of it..
even though we didn't won, at least we've moved 26 eels, a big number for me.. :p

Yeah at least we won the Bakiak competition in this year, and we were also won the "Lomba Balap Karung" at the last year (Big Smile)
So even though it's kinda late, Happy Independence day Indonesia! hence,I often insult you, you know that I still love you :p

anyway, I wrote this post in the cafe while it is raining and I've just finished two baked pasta! Fat me...!

Ain't no sunshine

We did a super fun photoshoot this afternoon, it was really energy draining, we had a lot of jokes and laughed around. Old friends always works for some mood booster!
We have tons of silly photos..I'm gonna upload it soon! :)