Friends are like elevator buttons, they can either take you up or bring you down,
choose wisely

I'm not born for that

It feels like living in this world nowadays is not effin' easy, you gotta make yourself fit like in some environment or group.
and sometimes you did some stuffs that you don't like..and the reason why you do it? is just to make them accept and admit you. Kid, it happens when you can't do with on your own.

I've been to places of "it-can-give-you-happiness"
I saw tons of people who were trying to get as high as possible,sneak in the dark, then getting lost in the music with watery red eyes, acting like there's nothing happenend, show them that they are fine..
Then I thought about it, is this what the world calls "cool" today?
I could smoke packs of ciggarette,drunk alcohol as much as I want, smoke pot,
but still wouldnt be satisfied. I feel that..I'm not live for that.

Maybe you think I'm hypocrite living in the double life,admiring God, but still playing around to fulfill my lust and desire with this.
Trust me, I'm just a normal human, I'm weak
I've been thinking about it a lot, having fun at the night then feel guilty in the next morning. and I keep doing that.. In some points I feel tired. I found my self that I was chasing a life full of lies and emptiness. I realize that what used to be cool doesn't excite me anymore.
I stared at the fake I've made, and feel like I'm one of the social trends slave.
So here I am, pull my self from those "cool" stuff and keep trying to close to my true happiness.

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I'm thinking 'What the hell?'

Love hurts, whether it's right or wrong
I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun

You're on your knees,
beggin' please,'stay with me'
But honestly, I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now,
I'm thinking 'What the hell'
All I want is to mess around,
and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me,
you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now,
whoa 'What the hell'

So what if I go out on a million dates
You never call or listen to me anyway
I'd rather rage than sit around and wait all day
Don't get me wrong,
I just need some time to play (yeah)